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We’re Fucked

“Interstate”

no I haven’t spoke to you
and I don’t know how you’ve been
it’s been so long that I
don’t even know where you are living

“No Talking”

I’ll come
as a wandering stranger
you’ll come
and bring me home

I’ll come
as a wandering stranger
you’ll come
and bring me home

with no talking
no talking

“The Road”

when some fall
from judgement
and some fall
from grace
some just fall
to fall away

when you fall
I’ll wait
with your secretive ways
in some room
off the highway

then I will take the road
down that darkened path
it will lead me back to your door

lord I’m hurt
I’m calling
without words
I’m screaming
without sound
I can’t get out

so I will take the road
down that darkened path
it will lead me back to your door

yes but
you’ll fall off the wagon in
every way
every way
and stand before the jury with
nothing to say
nothing to say

then I will take the road
down that darkened path
it will lead me back to your door

I will take the road
down that darkened path
it will lead me back to your door

“I Am”

I am coffee
and cigarettes
and whiskey
and sleeplessness

“Gentile Boyfriend”

he said
I know
what to do
with your
black heart

he said
I know
what to do
with your
tiny limbs

you’ll fall
so small
from the trampoline
but it’s the cancer
they find
that’ll kill you

he said
I know
what to do
with your
black heart

he said
I know
what to do
with your
tiny limbs

I won’t grow up
I won’t grow up
I won’t grow up
I won’t grow up

your bent posture
through manor house
that sells relics
to college girls

but tightly wound
through my fingers
it’s your long hair
that kills me

“Everybody’s On The Run”

when you fall
from that plane
over frozen
lakes
who will look
at the sun
everybody’s
on the run

everybody’s
on the run
everybody’s
on the run

“Come See Me”

come see me
come see me
the beauty in my life
is missing
when you’re not around

come see me
come see me
I spend my time hoping
for glimpses
of your pretty face

well find it oh
well find it oh
find your heart
bring it to me

come see me
come see me
if I cannot tell you
I cannot show you
if I cannot hold you
just let
me be near you

“Sheep Among Wolves”

tired of listening to your talk
it’s always coming back around
would it kill you just for once
to shut your busy little mouth

tired of taking solo walks
across this pretty lonesome town
and always ending up so fucked
every time that we go out

and though I try to act so cool
I’m a sheep among wolves
and though I try to act so cool
yeah I’m a sheep among wolves

so don’t you offer me that stuff
you know I can’t turn it down
and I could never get enough
’til you’re in your wedding gown
’til you’re in your wedding gown

and though I try to act so cool
I’m a sheep among wolves
and though I try to act so cool
yeah I’m a sheep among
all you fucking wolves

“Souls”

where are souls
where all the souls you’ve hidden
oh
where all the souls gone
oh
where all the souls you’ve hidden
oh
where all the souls gone

“Change In Your Heart”

short and pale blonde
with feats that seemed impossible
to pull off
how they move on
why fight for one incapable
of change

changing your heart
changing your heart
changing your heart
a change in your heart

“I Don’t Want To Be Found”

I’m high and I’m looking to fall
I’m low and I’m looking to crawl
so far
from here
they’ll never find
my trail

that night when I showed my teeth
that time when you watched me be
the man
I am
I don’t wanna see
that man

I don’t want to be found
keep your
canyon
I don’t want to be found
when I’m gone
I’m gone

So I’m high but I’m looking to fall
I’m low but I’m looking to crawl
so far
from here
they’ll never find
my trail

“This Stays True”

it’s gonna be a long train
coming
but it’ll get you there in time

it’s gonna be a long while
learning
and you may never get it right

but if you never get it right
you know
you know I’ll love you

and if you never get it right
you know
you know I’ll love you

you are my home

“Glass Houses”

If you deserve
To loathe me for
The wicked things
I’ve done

And listen to
The hateful words
Said by
The meddlesome

I’m sorry for
The civil war
The selfish things
I’ve done

So what if I always adore you more than anyone
So what if I always adore you more than anyone
So what if I always adore you more than anyone

“Can’t I Wonder”

And when you fall
Fall hard
When you fall
Fall hard

And then remove
So far
Then remove
So far
Can’t I wonder
Can’t I wonder
How you are

In the house
Alone
In the house
Alone

Or maybe out
With someone
Out there
With someone

Can’t I wonder
Can’t I wonder
Can’t I wonder
How you are

“You Are My Home”

Waiting to hear from you
Is hard
Checking for messages
Every hour

Are you gone
Now where

I was wrong
I am sick
I am trying to get well
And you are my home
You are my home
When the day is done
And everything’s wrong
You are my home
You are my home

Waiting to hear from you
All the time
Writing you letters I’ll
Never send

Are you gone
Now where

It’s so long
Since I’ve heard
Your sweet timbre

And you are my home
You are my home
When the day is done
And everything’s wrong
You are my home
You are my home

Oh how
Fall
Don’t stay
Fell

Home
You are my home
Home
When the day is done
And everything’s wrong
You are my home
You are my home
You are my home

“Heartless”

And I’ll come home
Drunk again
And we’ll ruin
Everything
And you fell
Out of love
But I caused
It all

How could you say that
How could you say that
You must be heartless
To say that

And I’ll come home
In the end
What’s the harm
In hoping
But you know it’s not so
I caused
It all
How could you say that
How could you say that
You must be heartless
To say that

How could you say that
How could you say that
You must be heartless
To say that

“Motioning”

And these fingers
Have been near you honey
And these fingers
Have been near you honey

So come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me
Come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me

And I know
That I should be over you
I don’t know
Why I can’t get over you

Come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me
Come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me

And this sweater
It didn’t hold the scent of you
And you’re tired
I left my heart in that room
And this sweater
It didn’t hold the scent of you
And I know
I’m gonna miss the feel of you

Come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me
Come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me

Come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me
Come back to me
Motioning
Come back to me

“Win Or Lose”

You either win or lose
You either win or lose
Though it depends on how you choose
Ultimately
You either win or lose

You either win or lose
You either win or lose
Though it depends on how you choose
Ultimately
You either win or lose

“To Be Home”

So you wander off alone
But you’re surrounded all along
And if you get a moment’s rest
You’ll lie shivering and wish
To be home
To be home
To be home
To be home

“You Sail On”

Dirt under my
Fingernails
Warm wind blows in
Your sails
But you can’t take off
You’re still docked

Broken-hearted
I miss you
Though we part
I’ll still be true
You sail on

You sail on
You sail on
You sail on

Turn over from
Sleeping pills
Wake up in white
Hospitals
And you can’t take off
Now you’re stuck

Broken-hearted
I miss you
Though we part
I’ll still be true
You sail on

You sail on
You sail on
You sail on

And you’re not gonna call
You’re not gonna write me
Except for little notes on
Forwarded mail
Notes I will read and re-read
Notes I will read and re-read

“Happy Ending”

There is no
Happy ending here

I’ll stand and
Walk away from here

And miss you
And hate the
Damage I have done

And miss you
And hate the
Damage I have done

And it goes on
And on
And on
And on
It goes on
And on
And on
And on

There is no
Happy ending here

I’ll stand and
Walk away from here

And miss you
And hate the
Damage I have done

And miss you
And change the
Person I’d become

And it goes on
And on
And on
And on
It goes on
And on
And on
And on

“Morning Light”

Morning light draws through
The blinds
Will you wake alone
Or with someone by your side

Morning light pours through
Struggles to wake you
You’ll hide under the sheets all day
I’d hide under the sheets all day too

We were one to fall apart
I don’t want to lose your heart
We were one to fall apart
I don’t want to lose your heart

Morning light breaks through
And you will haunt my day again
The dumbest thing to do
We could’ve stayed the best of friends

We were born to fall apart
I don’t want to lose your heart
We were born to fall apart
I don’t want to lose your heart
But if you’ve already said goodbye
Guess I have to say goodbye

Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye

DEBRIDEMENT

“An Evil”

There’s an evil in this room
There’s an evil in this room
There’s an evil in this room
There’s an evil in this room
Yesterday was still
But now that it has entered
There’s an evil in this room

“Cutter”

I had a dream once
Spirit-broken or in love
I walk the shape to the end
I walk the shape to begin

Who else in this world have I
To call on this late at night
I brought the blade to my skin
I brought the blade to my skin
I brought the blade
To my skin

Hush baby
Don’t cry
I’ll see you at
Sunlight

Baby
Don’t cry
I’ll see you at
Sunlight

“Bridges”

Bridges
As easy
To build
As burn

Bridges
As easy
To build
As burn

You
Set fire
To yours

One by one
One by one
One by one
One by one

“Conversation With A Half-Empty Bottle”

I’ll be damned
If I
Let you
Break me

I’ll be damned

I’ll be damned
If I
Let you
Break me

I’ll be damned

“Steamed Glass”

Steamed glass
Out of the shower
You step

Sleepless
Drying off
And sliding in
To bed

While you try to bear the winter
And keep warm
While you try to bear the winter
On your own

They’ll be around
On the bus
On the street
They’re everywhere

You’re pretending
Not to notice
All the little words they
Spit in the air
While you try to bear the winter
And keep warm
While you try to bear the winter
On your own

You’re on your own now
You’re on your own now
You’re on your own now
You’re on your own
Now

“The Sunsets Can Be Beautiful (Even In Chicago)”

You have
Lost the
Part of
You that
Cared

Shut in
Turning
Inward
Ever
Scared

Not if I can
Not if I can

You have
Given
More than
Your fair
Share

Tainted
Saint
A
Virgin
Once lived there

Not if I can
Not if I can

Not if I can
Not if I can

Find it
Find it
Find it

“Shakes”

Once
Anchorite
Took it on
All despite
What you’d seen
What it had done
Now it’s something
You don’t want

Take
Take the rope
Hold it tight
Don’t let go
Watch a fall
Watch a land
Watch it die
Watch it stand

Take
From the night
Give it back
Run and hide

Now
At your door
Uninvited
Back for more

With its fingers
In your mouth
The familiar
On your tongue
And its blood
Under your skin
Its intentions
In your hands

Take
From the night
Give it back
Run and hide

Take
From the night
Give it back
Run and hide

“If It Is”

Once if it is in illness which you speak
They’ll stop listening

Then if it is in illness which you speak
They’ll no longer have
Part of you

Please
Please stop breaking down
Please
Please stop breaking down

“There’s Nothing I Can Do”

I’m tired of the city
All the street noises
Outside my window flow
Thousands of headcases

Though I am sorry
This way just seems easiest
A house in the country
Is just not within my grasp

I miss my mother
I miss my father too
I miss my grandparents but
There’s nothing I can do

“Will You Be There”

When the light pours down
On all you’ve done
Will you be there

When the bombs rain down
On all you’ve done
Will you be there

When the light pours down
On all you’ve done
Will you be there

When they lay to waste
All you’ve done
Will you be there

“Get Out Alive”

It breaks the silence
When you cry
It breaks the silence

Better to leave it
All inside

Better to leave it
All inside

Yeah, yeah…
Yeah, yeah…

Woke up this morning
Paralyzed
Woke up this morning
Paralyzed

Your secret desire to escape your life
Could manifest

Your secret desire to escape
Your life
Could manifest

Yeah, yeah…
Yeah, yeah…

Get out alive
Get out alive
Get out alive
Please
Get out alive

Get out alive
Get out alive
Get out alive
Please
Get out alive

rivulets

“Creased”

Why is your face
Creased with worry
Why is your face
Creased with worry
It’s quiet on the harbor
It’s quiet on the harbor
No-one’s coming
And no-one is going away
You…you…you…
Have found
Have found a place to stay

“Tightrope”

Is it teaching you
To be
Is it teaching you
To be
Still

Over dead and dirty
Streets
Walking silently
Beneath
Tall buildings

Let’s walk
The rope
Tonight

Let’s walk
The rope
Tonight

Is it teaching you
To see
Is it teaching you
To see
The unreal

Under overpass
Of steel
Throwing bottles at
The wheel
It’s not me
They are weak

Let’s walk
The rope
Tonight

Let’s walk
The rope
Tonight

Let’s walk
The rope
Tonight

Let’s walk
The rope
Tonight

“Swans”

Swans
Float above my lake
You
Were more than I could take
Swans
Float above my lake
You
Were more than I could take

Have you ever fell
Have you ever fell
Have you ever fell
Into an
Armageddon of love
Into an
Armageddon of love

Swans
Float above my lake
You
Were more than I could take
Swans
Float above my lake
You
Were more than I could take
Have you ever
Have you ever fell
Have you ever fell in
To an
Armageddon of love
To an
Armageddon of love

Cause everybody knows
You been gone away
Ever since the time
That you refused to stay
And everybody knows
You been gone for days

“Four Weeks”

Hey, Mister Pharmacist
Could you pass me a cigarette
Cause I’m dying here
And I just want to get it over with

She says I’m desperate, I’m desperate for you
Annie wants bravado
She says I’m desperate, I’m desperate for you
Annie wants it all

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Four weeks to a month
Twelve months to a year
How long you gonna
Keep me waiting here
Four weeks to a month
Twelve months to a year
How long you gonna
Keep me waiting

And she asks
If I could cut
Her hair tonight

For five dollars
Or a pack of lights

And she says I’m desperate, I’m desperate for you
Annie wants bravado
And she says I’m desperate, I’m desperate
For something new
Annie wants it all

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Four weeks to a month
Twelve months to a year
How long you gonna
Keep me waiting here
Four weeks to a month
Twelve months to a year
How long you gonna
Keep me waiting

She’s making plans
She’s making plans
For getting as far away
As fast
As fast as she can

She’s making plans
She’s telling me about them
Well you can go to the west coast
Just send me some photos

Four weeks to a month
Twelve months to a year
How long you gonna
Keep me waiting here
Four weeks to a month
Twelve months to a year
How long you gonna
Keep me waiting

And I think I’m gonna need
Some kind of medication
If I’m gonna have to
Stay here long
And I think I’m gonna need
Some kind of
Prescription pill
To keep me
To keep me from
Blowing away

“Past Life”

Sorrow
Make yourself at home
Nowhere
That I feel I belong

Heaven
Wait for someone else
My uneasy feeling
Is coming down again

Breaking on the inside

Hollow
Shades of what you’ve been
Here
A change in shape begins
Never asked the sea to tell
My queasy ceiling
Is coming down again

Breaking on the inside

Goodbye past life
Feelings have died
Goodbye past life
Feelings have died

“Barreling Towards Nowhere Like There’s No Tomorrow”

And you remember
The sound of the waves
From the wood upon which you stood
And you remember
The sound of the waves
From the wood upon which you stood

And you used to rush out to greet them
With open arms
You used to rush out to greet them
With open arms

Now
We know where you’ll be at twelve
We know where you’ll be at four
Now
We know where you’ll be at twelve
We know where you’ll be at four

Walking down
To the liquor store

Yeah
That’ll keep you warm now
That’ll keep you warm now

“How, Who?”

Here they
Come
They will take you out
They will
Show you around

And each one
Will be
Good for a laugh
And each one
Will be
Better-dressed
Than the last

Here they
Come
They will take you out
They will
Show you around

And each one
Will be
Good for a laugh

And each one
Will be
Better-dressed
Than the last

How… Who…
How… Who…
How… Who…
How… Who…

“Stead”

Until you
Come walking
Four legs
On the floor
Until you
Come walking
Four legs
On the floor

I won’t know what
To do in your
Stead

I won’t know what
To do
In your
Stead

Come home
Come home
Come home
Come home
Come home

“Lacklustre”

So long
I’ve been
Lackluster wrong again
Door ajar
Boots on
Coat warm I’m wandering

Sometimes
I wish
You were alone at night
I tried
But the words
Words never come out right

So far
I’ve been
Lambent in head again
Streetlight
Snow white
I’m off
I’m leaving it
Behind

Lacklustre
Lacklustre
Show me
The way to shine
Lacklustre
Lacklustre
Show me
The way to shine

Lacklustre
Lacklustre
Show me
The way to shine
Lacklustre
Lacklustre
Show me
The way to shine

yearlings

“no rest”

‘ll have no rest
I’ll have no rest, lord
I’ll have no rest
Until I’m dead

You hold the key
You hold the key, lord
You hold the key won’t
You let me in

I’ll bury you
I’ll bury you, lord
I’ll bury you

Don’t you bury me

“stars in aspic”

Oh babe
I don’t like the sound
I don’t need a hole in the ground
I just wanna see you around

Oh babe
I don’t like the sound
I don’t need a hole in the ground
I just wanna see you around

“into the woods”

This my entrance
Into the woods
If you find a trail
Follow it

“taste”

Can still taste you
Don’t wanna taste
Anybody else

Can still taste you
Don’t wanna taste
Anybody else

I tried to make you
Feel like
I wanted to

I tried to make you
Feel home

I tried to make you
Feel like
I wanted to

I tried to make you
Feel home

Can still taste you
Don’t wanna taste
Anybody else

“bordeaux”

And in the night
You rocked the crowd

But that means nothing
After hours

We’ll stay up
And talk about

I will be glad
To see you smile

And you’re so beautiful
It breaks my fucking heart

I wish that I could
Mend your broken heart

Broken heart…

And in the dawn
We’ll greet the light

And we will leave
Each other’s sight

But you’ll be in my heart
Your songs are in my head

But you will never know
How could you know

And you’re so beautiful
It breaks my fucking heart

I wish that I could
Mend your broken heart

Broken heart…

Ask me to go with you
I’ll go…

But you’re so beautiful
It breaks my fucking heart

I wish that I could
Mend your broken heart

And you’re so beautiful
It breaks my fucking heart

I wish that I could
Mend your broken heart

Broken heart…

“destroy my life”

Dear dad
I found this girl
To destroy my life

And I like her
And she’s capable
Will it be final
Or will I rise

Destroy my life…

And I will rise
Yeah I will rise…

Destroy my life…

And I will rise
Yeah I will rise

you’ve got your own

“waited for you”

if you should stay awake
if you should pull apart
if you should tire from strain
how can I carry the weight

waited for you
wait all night long
waited for you
when you come home
waited for you
wait all night long

if you should set them up
if you should kill them off
if you should never sleep
I will see you in dream

waited for you
wait all night long
waited for you
when you come home
waited for you
wait all night long

you’ve got your own
ego to feed
why can’t you ever
say what you mean

come on
say what you mean
come on
say what you mean

and even though I know I love her
I’m just another watercolor
in a washed-out sky

waited for you
wait all night long
waited for you
when you come home
waited for you
wait all night long

baby please come home

“shadow of a ghost”

cars pass
they go by
sink under street light

shadow of a ghost
shadow of a ghost
shadow of a ghost

lines form
they march by
between
helmets white

shadow of a ghost
shadow of a ghost
shadow of a ghost

“rain all winter long”

when you play
when you play your songs
will they take you away
like they made me feel home

will they keep you in trees
will they keep you in green
in the cold wet north
inescapable coast

will they keep you warm
will they keep you warm
will they keep you warm
who will keep you warm

it’s gonna rain all
it’s gonna rain all
it’s gonna rain all
winter long

in the capitol
of suicide by alcohol
of dying dreams and late phone calls
no-one’s there to watch you fall

it’s gonna rain all
it’s gonna rain all
it’s gonna rain all
winter long

it’s gonna rain all
it’s gonna rain all
it’s gonna rain all
winter long

“let it go”

anyone would let it go

“slight return” (instrumental)